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Growing up, I thought I already knew who and what will I become in life. It was easier to dream when I was young without knowing the bumps I will encounter. For a child’s heart, dreaming is free and fun, but achieving it takes more than every thought in your mind, heart, and soul. And what makes it more difficult later is not exactly knowing what to do in life — our purpose of existence.

“I am lost”, Yes! my heart hears you. This is what I have always heard from myself too now and then. I thought at this age, I should have figured out what I want to be in life. However, I was wrong for forcing myself to be found when life wanted me to be lost in the process for a while. Because I realized it is when we are lost, we are greatly found.

I am the kind of person who always complains most of the time. May it be in career, personal, love, and professional matters. I asked myself, “How about if we stop complaining and start appreciating what supposedly life is to us?”. Life is a roller coaster ride, thrills and fears are inevitable but we continue to ride because we are up to achieving something great, not just for ourselves but for everyone we love.

We feel lost because our heart chooses not to understand where we are right now. So, when I do not understand the circumstance, I tried to write down all the beautiful things that happen to me instead. I am sure there is something in your mind right now. While we are lost in the road, we figure out things and unfold more the beauty of life along the way — the beauty of forgiving, acceptance, and the beauty of being lost for a while. It is the perfect time to know more about you — the truer you, who you are and what you want to do in life. I am sure there is so much in store for us.

Every day, we grow and glow when we glorify what God has given us. When we appreciate the rocks on the road as we are approaching nearer and nearer to our destination of finding ourselves.

We feel lost because we are so focused on ourselves. We look straight forward without taking glances on every side of the road. In every sunsets and sunrise, there is the beauty we fail to recognize.

It is okay to feel lost because this makes us human. But this is a reminder to me and you, my dearest friend, “No matter what, God is redirecting us to the right path”. It may be hard and vague to know as early as now because we already draw what our life should be since we were a child. But how about if we let God use His pencil to draw and author our own story. Like you, I feel lost all the time but I realize my day to day journey of feeling lost, leads me closer and nearer to the path God wants me to be – wonderful and surprisingly happier than the childhood thoughts I once instilled for myself.

I am not saying that we should give up on our childhood dreams because I am definitely not. How about if we adjust our focus for us to have a clearer view of the sides — the opportunities and blessings in life. Sometimes, things in life do not go on our way because it will always be God’s plan for us. But I am sure we will be merrier with all these.

Surely, our existence has its purpose far beyond what we can imagine but life itself is a maze to marvel for us to know more about ourselves.

I am lost but I know I will be found through His loving arms.

Have faith. We are almost there, my dearest friend.

If Marvel stories have superheroes to tell,
I want to write my own kind of wonder woman as well.
It shows that not all heroes wear capes night and day
Because our mothers can love us in all their ways.

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Social media is becoming more unhealthy these days. Why not use most of our time during this quarantine period in opening our hearts to God, reading our favorite novels, especially the classic stories that teach humanity and humility to us, learning how to cook, and do other things we missed doing because we are so busy earning money the previous months, or the best is to read more about COVID-19. Yes, you can! This applies to everyone even though you are not a medical professional. There are lots of reliable journals you can look at on google to prevent the spreading of false information.

There are a lot of hot issues these days and people have even more time in front of their screen than reflecting on themselves. The world needs love — it’s just so sad how all of us turns out these days.

We argue all the time about what we know, what we are supposed to know, and even what we do not know.

This is the season of waiting, of preparing ourselves, of repentance, of loving more, of forgiving others and forgiving ourselves. Hence, the season of God.

Stop the hate. We have the right to express and stand for our principles. I am not against all the arguments. Indeed, you are all smart and have important points to magnify. However, spread the love instead and nobly use intelligence.

Choose positivity. Please have mercy on your immunity.

Choose positivity. Please have mercy on your immunity.

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When I was young, I really love rain. It waters my soul and heart with so much love I could have ever imagined. It thought me bravery, patience, and perseverance as well. There is so much comfort and mellow because it feels so much home. All you could hear are the sounds of the raindrops gushing through the roof and the scream of the frogs behind the tall grasses. Oh! Did I tell you how I love it when the frogs make noise? It’s not weird at all because they gave melody of the night.  I am sure the papa, mama, and baby frogs are so happy tonight dancing through each drop of the rain. And not just them but the plants, and the rest of the creatures that treasure rain as much as I do. In rain, I find peace despite this poignant life I had.

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Today, I pick up a pen and a notebook and decided to fill them with thoughts because my heart, soul, and body were deeply moved and touched by these people whom we called prisoners. I thought it would be us that will be able to help them by extending our community mission but it was the opposite. I found the irony of where I am coming from. Instead, the people behind those bars were the ones who helped me a lot, emotionally and spiritually.

I am a medical worker and was able to conduct outreach programs bountiful times but today was a different one. Perhaps, it was the most unique and wonderful. I saw the reality of beauty and pain. It was genuinely beautiful because of the unconditional love the prisoners had shown. I did not just see the prisoners, but I had seen Jesus Christ in each of their hearts. Therefore, Jesus was the prisoner today for he touches me in several ways through these people.

It was October 2018 when we came for a mission and the prisoners warmly welcome us through dancing. They all danced in grace for a long time even under the heat of the sun. They were all good and uniform dancers as well. While I was watching them, I felt tears had started to cover my eyes and I asked God in silence, “How could they dance gracefully with smiles engraved on their faces despite the struggles they are in?” Suddenly, I remembered Paco of the “Chiongs Case” here in the Philippines wherein he stated, “Give up Tomorrow”. I then realized, If I were in their shoe, will I be able to say such and survive like them? The answer is I don’t know.

There was also a time in which I heard a friend who asked one prisoner when will he get bailed. But the prisoner answered, “I don’t know, maybe 5 years or I will be staying here for a lifetime”. Hearing his words cramped my heart because I saw how he smiled while talking. I saw longings in their heart but still, they remain strong and faithful to God. I heard their silent cries but they were courageous enough to face the world with joyful hearts. I asked again silently to myself, “How did they manage all of that?”. I have lots of thoughts running through my mind at that moment. Furthermore, they danced to another song by Michael Jackson entitled, “They don’t care about us”. It was highlighted within my senses while they repeated that line. Today, I wanted to tell them how we all cared about them. Lastly, the prisoners extend their gratitude to us because most of them are already forgotten by their families and friends but here we are reminding them that somebody still cares and listens.

Yes, these people have scars, tattoos, and even dark pasts but we cannot judge them based on how we look at them in life. Everyone deserves a chance to change and no one has the right to judge because it should be rightfully done by Him above. Let ours and God’s love change them instead, for love is the greatest commandment of all things.

Oftentimes in life, we complain about life, work, family, friends, salary, and things we have. We forgot to be grateful and blissful for God never abandon us. However, we were blinded by these earthly things. Remember, all of us will have a joyful being if we put Jesus Christ in our hearts. Today, I saw all of them longing to be loved and to love everyone. I felt so grateful to the Lord after seeing the reality of pain because of this, I learn to appreciate what is beautiful. These prisoners are so fortunate in God’s everlasting love. However, I still felt guilty about the freedom I abused which all of them were longing to embrace in life.

Today, I came nothing and naked but God designed this day for me to go home well-dressed and loved. Today, I am so renewed, relieved, and revived because I saw how beauty became a masterpiece of pain.

Today, I came nothing and naked but God designed this day for me to go home well-dressed and loved. Today, I am so renewed, relieved, and revived because I saw how beauty became a masterpiece of pain.

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